WHERE the RIVER FLOWS

a memoir of loss, love, & life with an eating disorder.

WHERE THE RIVER FLOWS

If you are someone who has struggled with an Eating Disorder, sexual or developmental trauma, depression, anxiety, suicidal thinking, divorce, grief, or knows someone who has and you long to understand them better, then it is my hope you will find yourself and your loved ones in the pages of this memoir.

“I have never felt so seen and so stripped bare by a book in my entire life.”

“I felt the whole time as though the scared and insecure teenager I used to be was being told You're not broken. You're not bad. Throughout so much of the book I just felt as though a mirror of my own life was being held to my face and it kept repeating You're not alone. There are so many more things I could say, but I truly don't have the words to do it justice. This book was an experience for me, and I hope it can be for you too.”

-Julie

Hear what readers are saying about
Where the River Flows:

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"This book spoke as if directly to me. So much of my own life experiences, my thoughts, my feelings were all read here. I’m not alone, as so many aren’t even though we feel that way. This was raw to the fullest, real, relatable, sad and hopeful."

-Elisa

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"I believe anybody who has or does struggle with an eating disorder, depression, anxiety, any mental health struggles, and anybody going through or has been through a divorce would benefit from this book."

-Samara

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"One of the main reasons I would recommend it is because it deconstructs dominant discourse that we have all internalized and helps pull us into the way we need to start talking about mental health (etc. etc.). It is helping create a more empowered universal language and understanding for the struggle that many people have to overcome. It is beautifully written, accessible, inviting, non-judgemental text." 

- Hannah Zimmering, MC, Provisional Psychologist 

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"This book is one of the best books I have ever read in my life. So honest and raw. Everyone needs to crack this book open and read it. Period!"

-Ida 

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"As a person in ED-recovery as well, I was especially touched by this part of the book. I’ve rarely felt seen in the way I felt seen in this book. There’s so much shame in the ED-community. Not only when being sick but also when not being “sick enough”. The author addressed that beautifully and I feel so grateful."

-Nanna

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"This book touched my soul in a way I never imagined a book could. This is a MUST read for anyone, everyone has something to gain from this memoir."

-Marijke, Mindset Mentor

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"I feel like every single person in the world would benefit from reading this book. It’s about life - as it really is. Life as it ebbs and flows in the lives of real humans with real - big - feelings. And a perfect commentary to how depression, anxiety, doubts and tears are all a part of the human experience - and also a testimony to the fact that we will be okay at the end of the day."

-asked to stay anonymous

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"Rachel’s bravery in baring her soul and sharing her journey is truly an inspiration to those who live with a mental illness. Regardless the cause and symptoms, the journey to dig deep and unravel the layers takes courage, determination and resilience, and Rachel reminds us that no matter what we believe, we are not as alone in our journey as we think we are. She teaches us that living with a mental illness doesn’t need to be a permanent negative life sentence. With the right tools we can manage and maintain a normal healthy life too."

-Catrina

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"Everyone should read this. If I were to niche down: women (younger), LGBTQIA+ community, those struggling with mental health issues, and family and support for those with mental health illnesses. Anyone who has struggled or known someone who has struggled with an ED. Any married person. Anyone who has parents. Anyone who internalizes and puts extreme pressure on themselves. ANY woman." 

-asked to stay anonymous

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"I essentially took a PTO day just to finish this book. I could not stop reading it. It is the bravest, most touching and beautifully written thing I’ve ever read. This book is needed."

- Gabrielle

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"This book has given me so much more understanding about myself in a beautiful, real and groundbreaking way. Everyone who struggles in any way will definitely benefit from this book, but also people who are trying to understand loved ones who struggle with their mental health."

- Kim

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"I read this book in one day. The way Rachel puts feelings a lot of us felt, and are probably stills, into words is what makes this book special. Reading about her experiences made me feel less alone and less ashamed of what I was going through. At the end I felt like I not only had an ally but also a friend. Beautifully written and easy to follow, it’s book you don’t want to put down. And just gives so much comfort."

- Maria

What listeners are saying about the Audiobook:

🎙Beautifully raw, emotional, and real

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"Rachel did an amazing job writing and narrating tips book. Her ability to describe emotions and paint clear pictures of her experiences had me feeling so connected to each part of her journey. she communicates in a way that reminds me I'm not alone in my own struggles and triumphs. this book is so beautifully raw and human and I was sad for it to end. I'm left longing for more of Rachel's writing.”

🎙I only wish I’d read it sooner.

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"I’ve never read anything so cathartic. The writing is beautifully done. Readers can expect honest, raw recollections that feel like you’re hearing from a trusted friend who loves you enough to tell you the real truth rather than a more comfortable or easy version. Although the stories detail a healing journey and the events from which healing is required, there is such a beautifully created space between the words for joy, hope, and perseverance. The real kind. Not platitudes or bs. On a personal note, this book validated visceral pain that I’ve felt like no one else has been able to see in me no matter how hard I try to connect. But it has also empowered me to continue in my efforts to heal and grow by showing me the strength and beauty in the choice to do so. Thank you, Rachel for telling your important story. I will recommend this book over and over again.”