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Curiosity, Courage, Connection, & Thoughts on Healing Culture

After 18 years of therapy, I feel…fine. Not euphoric, perfect, or “healed” like I used to aspire towards. I feel fine. In a wonderfully simple, stable, and settled kind of way. I’m fine. I’m enough. Life still throws curveballs, I get stressed, I feel insecure and fumble in conversations and struggle to go to sleep. I wonder how I’ll pay bills and freak out about a pimple. I get overly excited about french fries and spill beer…everywhere. I panic at meals sometimes and wonder if I’ll ever really love my body.

StoriesRachel HavekostOctober 31, 2022connection, courage, curiosity, travel, solo travel, scotland, edinburgh, healing, healing culture, self-analysis, self acceptance, self love, inner child, relationshipsComment

What I Learned Spending 3 Months Alone in Bali

When I arrived in Bali, I was quickly faced with a harsh truth: I didn’t know how to take care of myself. I learned, that for years, I had been dependent on anyone other than myself to take care of me when shit got hard. And suddenly, I had no one to give me the answers. I had to figure it out myself.