Hi angel, I’m so glad you’re here.
Let me introduce myself & share my background with you.
My name is Rachel, and since I was little, I’ve wanted to be a writer.
It wasn’t until 2015 after attending intensive treatment for my eating disorder that I discovered what I really wanted was to find a way to help others feel less alone--a loneliness I felt haunted by for a decade before finding treatment and learning how so un-alone I was.
Still, I thought I couldn’t actually help anyone until I was fully healed.
I went to graduate school to study psychology, thinking this would give me credibility. I wrote a blog for a year before ever sharing it, because I thought I wasn’t famous enough for my story to matter. I waited to wake up healed, fixed, and in a state of total consciousness, thinking I had to be fully healed to share any of the wisdom I’d accrued from over a decade of therapy.
What I’ve learned, though, after 18 years of therapy, is that I am never fully healed. Life will always happen. I’ll get triggered. Loved ones will die. Life will throw shit at me that will cause me to feel, to hurt, to regress, to find myself back on my knees again pounding the pavement and wondering “how am I here again?”
The greatest lesson I’ve learned in the last three years doing this work is that while yes, many people do want answers, most of the time people just want to know they’re not alone. That they aren’t the only one feeling as shitty as they do. That the thoughts they have are not isolated, and that maybe, just maybe if someone else understands what it’s like to live how they do, there’s hope after all.
In May of 2020, right after my husband asked for a divorce and just a few months into the pandemic, I decided to finally write my book.
What do I have to lose now? I thought.
I remember having no fucking clue what I was doing, and I longed for a synthesized space to figure out which of my thousands ideas to pick, how to outline the book itself, how long it might take/what to expect, and how to publish/self-publish/get my book in the hands of the humans I hoped might need it.
I interviewed a book coach who told me "you'll never be a bestseller, but I'll still work with you."
Obviously, I didn't work with him. And “Where the River Flows” is a bestseller. My hope is to provide you not only the tools, guidance, and structure I craved, but also the encouragement I deserved.
It's brave as fuck to tell your story, and I hope to remind you of that.